I know how to start a novel. How to play with themes. How to immerse myself in characters. I don’t know yet how to finish my novels. It’s been something I have been struggling with and pondering for a while. Well, I am taking a new approach. I am starting over. Rebooting.
What I learned this year is that my early works can be something I learn from and leave behind. I don’t need to finish every book I start. If I got something out of it and it’s time to move on, I have learned to give myself permission to do so. Maybe those projects will be started over one day. Maybe not. But they have served their purpose for now.
Time for a a fresh start.
I write the emotions of a scene. I write the logic of a scene. I write the secrets of a scene. Depending on my (bipolar) mood, I write differently. I also have very different perspectives to give my characters. Right this minute, I am feeling melancholy and this is impacting which story I tell and how I tell it. Is it any wonder I write my books out of order and I write several books at a time?!?
In my emotionally led moments (depressed), sometimes I need to write without a specific character or book in mind which is how I end up with 70+ books started and in my creative, logical (manic) times I see the connections between all my different writings which is how I end up with series that I didn’t see coming. In my anxiety-filled times, I don’t get much done, unfortunately. It is hard to write through that. But I have been trying to write it into some characters. I know it will likely annoy some of those readers who only
In my anxiety-filled times, I don’t get much done, unfortunately. It is hard to write through that. But I have been trying to write it into some characters. I know it will likely annoy some of those readers who only like strong heroines who kick all problems including their own in the ass immediately (and I enjoy that ride as well), but I hope that my characters who can’t be strong all the time will be treated with the compassion that I try to give myself. And I hope that sharing my experiences (here or in my books) results in positive momentum for myself and others.
Do I really have to end my books? Lol. I’ve been stressing that they don’t have ending yet. But I remembered: there can be meaning without end.
Boy, is this true!
I haven’t written process posts in a while because I have both found my process and have no idea what it is exactly.
This means, I use Scrivener and bound journals to organize my writing and to free write, respectively. I have started to post chapters to Wattpad, warts and all, to force myself to move forward and a bit more linearly with my writing. And I have given myself daily word count goals.
The question is: is it working? The answer is: it’s not perfect, but I am moving forward.
And that is a lot to be grateful for.
I love chaos characters in whatever I watch, read, or write. So I couldn’t resist this quote.